gross

I just feel so disgusting and horrible and confused and alone and I don’t even know what I want anymore or how I can even begin to comprehend the future and it’s not unusual for me to get sad late at night or for a few days at a time but I’ve been feeling like this for a while now and it’s so over-whelming not knowing what to do to be happy and I’ve tried going out with friends, and I’ve tried secluding myself from everyone else, but nothing I do seems to shift this horrible sense of disgust in myself and confusion about everything